a new year...

so it's a(nother) new year...where did 2011 go?! i swear, the older i get, the faster the years seem to go. this year in particular just flew by. i decided i would like to stay the age 30. it sounds cool. 31 doesn't seem as exciting to me. i guess part of me wants to take 2011 back. take my year 30 back. 


don't get me wrong, i have some awesome memories from last year. an amazing trip to europe. celebrating a milestone birthday. seeing my college girls for a crazy weekend in dc. fun summer trip home to florida. second wedding anniversary. seeing another one of my best friends get married. fourth anniversary at my job. denali joined our fam. awesome thanksgiving home in florida with everyone, including meeting my niece for the first time. nice relaxing christmas at home...all, in all, i can't complain that much. ;)


onto having a re-do of this year...i spent way too much time being emotional. haha, quite possibly an understatement, but true none the less. i got wrapped up in thinking i actually have control over all parts of my life. and i've finally realized i don't. there, i said it.


i mean, it shouldn't be that hard to get knocked up, right?! fast forward 21 months and still no bebe. seriously?! this waiting thing was not in my life plan. so for the last 21 months, my life has felt incomplete and filled with sadness. as i mentioned already, i've had some wonderful things happen this year. but definitely an underlying feeling of sadness. so, it's a new year and i've decided to (try my best to) have a more positive attitude. i've also decided that i want to blog about it a little. i mean, i'm not going to start posting stats about my egg reserve or the number of ovulation test sticks i've gone through or all the times i've had to put my legs in stirrups...right, i'll stop there.


i started this blog with the intent to keep my family and friends updated on my life since you are all so far away. i've missed blogging and know that it's been put on the back burner for the last year due to my mind being preoccupied.


so feel free to follow along (or not) on our journey..with the hope that someday i, too, will get to post that silly little facebook status.