iui #2 fail (thank God for best friends)

so it's another negative test and failed iui cycle. i guess it just goes to show that everything can look perfect but still not give you the result you were hoping for. we're debating taking a break from treatments or trying for the ol' third time's a charm...

despite the disappointing end to the weekend, i just want to say what great friends i have. unbeknownst to me, they put together a box that arrived on my doorstep last week. a book on gaining control of emotions (definitely will come in handy), a journal (in case there are things i dont know the whole world to know while blogging), a framed photo of the 5 of us at stacey's wedding last summer (although i actually look pregnant in the pic! maybe i should've only had one of the cupcakes that night...), candy (including swedish fish that were consumed in all of about 30 minutes), and sweet, funny and meaningful letters from each girl. i had to put the letter down until my eyes cleared up from crying (where is that book on emotions?!). it meant the world to me and reminded me that true friends do last a lifetime. i love these girls.

2.16.12

hard to believe it's been 4 years since i got to hear grandpa curt greet me in the voice i will never forget..."hello....erin!" missing him more as each year passes...


unforgettable

iui #2

well, we did our second iui this past wednesday. everything looked really good. i went in for an ultrasound the sunday prior to the iui and my RE (reproductive endocrinologist-"fertility doctor") joined. usually it's just the assistants who perform the ultrasound, but she happened to be in that day. she counted 5 good looking follicles (what they call the eggs before they mature and burst through). she seemed pretty excited that i had that many. so here's to being cautiously optimistic this time around...
i've always thought that when it happens, i'll somehow know right from the beginning. i know that's a silly thought because some women experience nothing through the first few months. and it's frustrating because sometimes i think i feel symptoms that are really just in my head. or maybe it's just gas. but that's a whole other topic.
we haven't decided if we're going to do a third iui (should we need to, of course...remember, cautiously optimistic..). i guess we'll just see when the time comes.
until then, i'm going to spend the next 10 days putting together the bed for our guest room i [stupidly] bought from ikea. only 8 gajillion pieces and pos directions.
anyway...hope everyone has a great week!